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2/12/08 08:28 pm - Official!

Erik l'ange,

It's official now!  We bought the tickets!  Well...I did, anyways.  I'm so excited now!  Here's the game plan:

Thursday, May 1st, 2008: 10:35AM: Garry's flight leaves LA
The flight in nonstop (a mericle, I know!)
Thursday, May 1st, 2008: 6:11PM: Garry's flight arrives into Cleveland
TONS.OF.FUN
Wednesday, May 14th, 2008: 5:00PM: Garry's flight leaves Cleveland
The flight is also, nonstop
Wednesday, May 14th, 2008: 6:56PM: Garry arrives back in LA

I'm so excited :) It's OFFICIAL.  *dances*

Until next time, I bid you goodbye,

-Kathryn

2/12/08 03:12 pm - Almost There!

Erik l'ange,

I had a little chat with mom earlier today.  It was before lunch...I went to her and told her that we need to talk about dates.  See, mom keeps telling me to talk to Garry about dates that will work and he keeps telling me to talk to mom about it.  So FINALLY someone was actually talking to me about them.  It shocked me!  Mom got out the calendar and I told her that prom was on the 3rd and my last show choir concert is on the 7th.  She told me he could fly in on the 1st, which is a Thursday and then, if his mom would let him, he could stay until the 14th or so.  I told him these dates (which suprised him...but in a good way) and he said he'd run it passed his mom just to make sure she didn't care if he was gone for mother's day.  He'll ask her today or tonight...and once I know for sure I can go online, find the cheapest tickets, run it by mom, buy them and we're all set *dances*  I can't wait!!  I can't wait for it all!  I can't wait for his embrace, for his kiss...I can't wait to just be in his presence and laugh non-stop for weeks!  I can't wait to watch movies with him and cuddle on the couch.  I can't wait to walk home from a long day of school with him, hand in hand.  I can't wait to take TONS of pics with him and post them everywhere!  He knows how much that means to me and wants to take a ton of pics with me :)  Finally...I won't be jealous of everyone who gets to do that...simply  to take pictures with their loved one.  I can't wait for it all...once it's official I'll feel a giant weigh off of my chest.  it won't just be a dream anymore...it will be a reality.

I'm so happy...

Until next time, I bid you goodbye,

-Kathryn

2/12/08 09:45 am - Snow Day

Erik l'ange,

So today we have our actual snow day.  There's at least 4 inches on the ground as of now and the snow's still falling.  We may be getting some ice along with it too...so I doubt we'll have school tomorrow.  Funny thing is, if we don't have school tomorrow we'll only have to go to school 1 day this week (if that) since we origionally had Friday and Monday off this weekend.

I cut my bangs yesterday since they were getting in my eyes...they're a little shorter than I want them.  It's amazing though...when I got them cut I had all the confidence in the world because I loved them so much.  Now that I didn't do it like I wanted (they're not horrible or anything...just shorter than I wanted) my confidence is down the toilet :-P.  It's a good thing my hair grows fast...and they look alright when I have my hair back.

Today's going to be SO BORING.  Garry has school all day today *sigh*

I really wish I had more LJ icon space...I adore the ones I found yesterday and will probably look for more today due to bordum.

Until next time, I bid you goodbye,

-Kathryn

2/11/08 07:59 pm - Icons II

2/11/08 04:42 pm - Icon fun!

2/11/08 03:32 pm - Bored

Erik l'ange,

We had a snow day today...I knew about it last night, so I was up fairly late talking with Garry.  There isn't a drop of snow on the ground (or so I can tell...I haven't looked outside today), but we got the day off because it's too cold to go to school.  It's about 18 degrees currently and that is our high today...without wind chill.  Grandma said the weather man on TV said we're supposed to get 6 inches of snow tonight but weather.com says we're supposed to get 3 inches.  Strange...a year from this week ago we had that huge ice storm and didn't have school all week.

I had another snow day today and there's most likely going to be one tomorrow too...we have tons of snow and now we're getting a sheet of ice over it all. Fun, fun. I hope they call off school tonight instead of tomorrow so i can stay up later tonight :-P.  There really is no fun in a snow day when you can't stay up late the night before.

Remember?  Tis a lovely Valentines day present from mother nature...who happens to be me. *giggles*

I'm bored.  Garry was on but he had to go pick up Gregg because his car broke down.  Hopefully Garry and him will slowly grow apart.  I don't wish this because I don't like Gregg that much but because he keeps hurting Garry and making him feel like crap.  Garry doesn't deserve a "friend" like that.  One day Gregg will realize he's bringing this all upon himself.

Grandma's still staying here...she's been here for a few weeks.  She's here because Emily and mom go up to 8400 every day...I like having grandma here for a visit but she, along with the rest of my family, makes me feel like everything I do or say is just wrong and I need to stop talking.  It's so hard for me to accept the fact that I am not them and what they think I should be like doesn't mean I have to be that way.  I'm so sick of hearing about Goshen, EMU, and Bluffton.  I am NOT going to those colleges.  I'm not going to a Mennonite college.  Dad won't let me...he knows I don't want to.  Mom, on the other hand, talks about nothing but them.  I only get mail from those schools...everyone at church pesters me about going there.  I'm not going there.  I want to go to a school in California or out West somewhere.  I want to go to a nice, medium sized school, where I feel like I'm getting a good education and alive.  I just want that...

Until next time, I bid you goodbye,

-Kathryn

2/10/08 01:09 pm - It's Sunday

Erik l'ange,

Well it's Sunday...and a horribly windy Sunday too!  It keeps snowing periodically but it doesn't stick to the ground because the wind is too fierce.  Over night (and today) it's supposed to get unbearably cold.  I only heard the wind chill temperatures and I can almost guarantee we'll have a 2 hour delay tomorrow at the very least.  Tomorrow morning the wind chills are supposed to be -21.  Yes.  You read that right.  -21.  So the actual temperature is who knows what.  California sounds amazing now.

Last night Garry created a new dnd for Mandy and me :).  Mandy's his ex...just goes to show how much I love and care for him.  They talk to each other and she talks to me...we're a little group of good friends and so we decided to start an elven dnd.  We didn't get much done last night though.  Garry's the DM (Dungeon Master) since we don't wanna play with Gregg and his little group of jerk friends.  But we basically got out character's made...mines name is Scarlett (I like that name for some reason) and started to play.  Many's character and mine are friends and we spotted these elves looking all suspicious so we followed them just for the fun of it and then they got dragged away.  I always leave at the BEST parts :)

Then Garry and I have our own little elven rp which has an amazing plot.  Basically he's the guard of the royal palace and my character's the best friend of the Princess (and the second highest person in the kingdom...I forget how though).   Then the royal family goes missing and it's suspected some Drow or Orcs took them.  Garry's character gets all ticked off at mine and drags her home (after telling her that he's engaged to the princess) where they tell her father what happened...he doesn't want his daughter to go...so she runs away and tells Garry's character that her father said she could go along to be a medic.  So they head off and have already been through one battle and our characters aren't so annoyed with the other lol (we always have our characters start off like that)

On top of all this today during church I decided to hop onto my computer that I do the bulletins on and type up the beginning of a story I wanna write.  It's a typical me story...a young elf prince and a rich elven young woman are to get married and on their walk back from their spot in the meadow in the middle of the forest some Drow attacked them and take Scarlett (told you I like the name).  That's all I have but you can bet there's going to be the Drow prince who falls in love with her.  I haven't entirely decided how it's going to end yet...but right now I'm just jotting down some ideas.

I'm watching Joseph now...the movie.  I wanted to see how they did it now that I know what's going on and my character, Isacaar is insane in the movie...and strangely looks like my uncle.

I just got a phone call from Betty and our A-team meeting is canceled tonight :D woo!

Until next time, I bid you goodbye,

-Kathryn

2/9/08 03:21 pm - More Pics 'n Things

Erik l'ange,

Well I had dance practice at school this morning. I hardly danced though...us brothers dance such a little amount it's crazy. But in "One More Angel in Heaven" I get to sing a high part :D a really high part. I'm talking about high C. (I'll post the song on here so you all can hear what I mean). I actually was able to hit it and I'm dancing while I sing it...I impressed myself. But then after "dance" practice Summer took me to her house (which is right beside the church) and her mom made us some French toast and these awesome fried potatoes. We ate some of that, started to play scrabble, went up to her room and she showed me some of her clogging dance moves (she's really good too) and then we watched some chick flick that was reeeeeally predicable. But it was alright...not my idea of an amazing time but it feels nice that I could give her some happiness. I don't know about her life or past but I know she's adopted and things have been tough for her. People at musical practice don't like her much...they say she annoys them and she's a bad dancer (though they can't really be talking). She's a freshman for crying out loud! In my eyes she's like a tender little bud getting ready to bloom and I'm happy to be a part of that process for her. It just feels nice to know someone looks up to me and admires me.

I have church, dad's house, and an A-team meeting tomorrow *sigh* I hate Sundays.

I looked up prices for flights on priceline.com and I'm amazed at how inexpensive tickets are! If he came here on May 2 and left on May 9th and flew from Santa Ana to Columbus he/I would only have to pay $230! I can get enough to pay for that by the end of February with money left over to spend on clothes, dates, maybe a prom dress of some sort...but mostly dates :) It's only 3 months away...this is too amazing!

The rest of the pictures.Collapse )

Click here to listen to the song: http://download.yousendit.com/4A07DF2609A6A888
(Warning: It's supposed to be overly country western, but my part isn't western...it's a fun song and I hate country!)

Until next time, I bid you goodbye,

-Kathryn

2/8/08 05:37 pm - It Will Work

Erik l'ange,

On the way home from the church mom and I were talking about Garry coming over here for prom.  Mom told me that the earlier you get tickets the cheaper they tend to be.  She said we can look at all sorts of air ports around to see which one's cheaper and I can just wear the dress I wore to homecoming.  It's pretty and elegant.  So now I just have to talk to Garry about dates that will work and report them back to mom, get the okay, look online for tickets, save up the pony and we'll be good.  I know mom knows how much this all means to me, yet I don't know if she understands the magnitude of how much it really does.  Nobody in the world has made me happier than Garry...Warren was a jerk...a two faced, horny, stuck up, snobby, sheltered, crappy jerk of a boyfriend.  Gregg didn't want to put the energy into the relationship...all he cares about is getting some (which luckily wasn't from me).  He has a new girlfriend now (and trust me I could care less...I only pity that girl).  It's the girl who was all over him when we were together and God knows what the two of them did when we were still together.  But Garry told me she got mad at him because he took 20 minutes to reply to a question she asked.  Sound familiar?  He's just a crappy boyfriend...not as crappy as Warren though.  But Garry actually does things for me...every single day he tells me how beautiful, smart, and amazing I am.  He tells me that if he were to collect all the stars in the universe they would not amount to the love he has for me.  He tells me I'm the reason he's in culinary arts school and making something of himself.  He makes me feel like I matter in the world...like he's the only ear listening to my voice and that's all I need.  He just gives me this sense of life I have never known before...it's as if I've just been a body and mind wandering around in the world until I got together with him...and then I finally had a soul.  Don't get me wrong, he is not perfect...we argue sometimes and disagree on issues, but we always make up, we always open up to one another, but most of all we agree to disagree witch is so incredibly mature and healthy...I can't believe I would say that ever.  But it feels good. 

I have some pictures I was going to post here but mom came and I had to go.  So I suppose I'll post them now.


Until next time, I bid you goodbye,

-Kathryn

2/8/08 02:52 pm - Randomness

Erik l'ange,

I'm very ready to graduate high school, which is a shame because I'm ready for all the wrong reasons.  I don't feel ready to jump out of the nest and fly yet because the idea of it terrifies me but I just want to jump because I hate the nest so much.  My heart wants me to go out to California for school...the idea of going to school in San Diego is amazing to me and not just because it's about an hour away from Garry.  Don't get me wrong, I would rather die than go to a college far away from him (which, I know, is also a stupid thing)...I need to be close to him after I'm done here.  Having him, even if it's for a year when I first begin will make a world of a difference to me.  But while my heart says this my mom's telling me it's a bad idea, I shouldn't go far away, I won't have her (which is just her saying she doesn't want me to leave), and we all know going to a school because your significant other is there isn't the best way to pick a school.  I know this...I don't want to go to THE school Garry does...I want to find a nice school that is right for me close by him so on weekends or free time I can go up and see him or he can come see me.  I'm just not used to the idea of thinking for myself...not having mom there to tell me what's right or wrong, up or down, left or right (and trust me, I cannot tell left from right easily).  The idea of it is so incredibly refreshing I can't even explain it to you.  Yet it also makes me scared...when I'm 18 everyone will expect things out of me...things I am most defiantly NOT confident enough to do.  I know I'll get through it all and be happy in the end...I'm a determined little bugger like that.  Even so, right now I'm horribly conflicted.

I don't think Clarissa is very happy with me.  I don't really know what I did either...the other day she called me (Sunday) and asked if she could come over in a way and I, in a way, said no.  I was online, I was tired, I wasn't feeling too great and I just wanted to relax.  But after that she hasn't said 2 words to me.  She came down to the cafeteria for lunch but asked Andrea something, didn't say a single word to me, and left.  When we walk by each other in the halls she doesn't say anything to me.  The other week Clarissa, Robin, and Tracy went to Cicis and to see Juno but nobody asked me to go.  I don't think any of them like me really.  I think Clarissa thinks I'm a nice person but she just doesn't have the time or energy to be my friend...that and we never see each other.  She's either at school, working, or with Robin.  Robin hates me...I can tell.  She annoys me unlike anyone else has before.  When I "talk" to her (which is basically me trying to start a conversation and having her just stare at me, do something else and not reply, or reply with a nod) she makes me hate myself.  She makes me annoyed with myself...her expressions say it all and I hate it.  Not to mention her myspace annoys me greatly.  But whatever...she never really was my friend.  She's just my "friend" because Clarissa supposedly is.  Tracy...I NEVER see her...never anymore.  But I don't need friends here.  I've stopped complaining about this place because I know in a year I'm out of here and I'm not going to come back (to live anyways).  Nobody seems to get that.

In Advanced Comp (one of the best classes in the universe) we wrote "I Am" poems and read them to the class.  In mine I wrote something like, "I want to leave this place and live again".  The teacher (who is supposed to be mean, tough, and scary but is really nice and funny) wrote me a comment (we all write each other nice comments on paper and pass them to the person once we're done so it wasn't unusual or anything) saying something like, "you really want to leave, I hope you leave a part of yourself here"....something like that.  I don't know why, but the comment stood out to me...made me happy, yet sad at the same time.  I'm TRYING to leave a part of myself behind but it's a part that nobody wants...and I'm not giving up anything else.  I wanted to leave my voice behind...be known for my gift.  But I can assure you that is not going to happen...my voice is going to die away just like the music department.

I'm waiting for mom to get home so we can go over to the church to work on the bulletins.  I then have to swing by the scrap booking shop right beside the church to get some supplies for a project we're doing in AP History.  I don't really want to...but I have to and I'm kinda excited to go in there.  However, I DO NOT want to spend any of my money on anything.  I only have $195 or so and who knows how much Garry's flight is going to cost.  Probably more than I'm suspecting.  He owes his mom $500 for the surgery on his can Xoa...I don't know when she expect it since he can't seem to find a job to get money to pay it off.  Even so, the chances of him finding a job and making enough money to pay that off and for a flight over here are VERY, VERY slim.  Therefore, I want to save up my own money to pay for it...I need him over here for prom and my last show choir concert.  This is what I've always dreamed of and I don't feel fully alive unless I am with Garry.  It's always been this way...he just makes me feel so alive.  I need him here...I need that big push to get me through the school year.  I'm counting on this and because of this I can get through each day without being utterly depressed.

Until next time, I bid you goodbye,

-Kathryn
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