2/17/08 03:39 pm - *sigh**sigh*
I'm sitting here in dad's room with Cody while Justin and dad haul the dry wall up to the room beside the one I'm in. I went to the store with dad and got the stuff...I got the easier end of the deal. And dad's putting his amazing cooking skills to work and making this amazing chicken and, as he told me, these French potato type things that are amazing. I can't wait to try it all...dad is so awesome. I was writing in my diary on the way here (which I haven't done for awhile and really need to do every day) and I have come to the conclusion that everyone in my family really annoys me but dad. He doesn't assume he knows me and doesn't expect me to know myself yet. He's really trying hard to get to know ME and not the person he wants me to be...and he's helping me find out who I am as well. I know he cooked this chicken and potatoes because he knows I'm interested in trying new foods. Mom, on the other hand, told me yesterday that for every out of state college I look at I have to look at one in state college and one of them HAS to be Bluffton. Bluffton is my worst nightmare. Bluffton is a Mennonite College in Ohio. And I'm so sick of getting mail from Mennonite colleges...for the PSAT I took they didn't have the option of Athiesm, so I put "other". Stupid me put "Mennonite" on the PACT when I was a freshman or Sophomore so now I get all these Mennonite colleges trying to contact me. I really just wanna go out to California even for a week and spend some time with Garry and look at some colleges around there, just so I can get an idea. I don't even have to be in the same place as Garry let alone the same school (well duh, he's in an art institute and I don't want to be a chef). I just want to be near him and go to a nice school that will make me feel alive. I'm sick of my mother. Luckily dad wouldn't make me go to some Mennonite College.
I'm REALLY in the mood to RP with Helix and Gwen now...but this computer doesn't have Furc on it and Garry's not online. Hopefully this A-team meeting will go by quickly so I can get home and talk to him on the phone or online or something. I'm very clingy to him lately...maybe it's because I know he'll be here soon and the idea thrills me. We are the dearest couple I know (other than Amanda and Ari...I don't know Dana and Phil well but I'm sure they're a beautiful couple as well).
Until next time, I bid you goodbye,