07:59 pm - January
12 days until Amanda's 21stThere you have it. Once more I am the baby of the group :-P
13 days until Garry's 20th
23 days until my 17th
First day back to school was today...thank goodness. Only one teacher said anything about my bangs and a hand full of students but nobody freaked out or anything like I was expecting. I hate it when life reminds you that what you think is big really isn't that significant. I was afraid of the attention and when I didn't really get it, it kinda disappointed me. I'm not utterly crushed or anything, but slightly disappointed. That's fine though, I don't really want to be in the limelight here. I'm just going to remain idle and under the radar until I graduate. I have big plans after that...I'm going to be heard, I'm going to be known, I'm going to be respected and it will all be because I will feel alive and I will feel I'm worth it. Here I don't feel as if I even have a soul...as if it flew right from my body when I left Barberton. Here I don't feel as if I'm worth anything, but luckily Garry's making sure I don't feel as unimportant as I used to.
The morning was nice this morning. I was half hoping for a snow day so I could spend more time with Garry but we didn't get it which I was perfectly okay with. Yet right around 7th period my body decided to do what it does each month which is never a fun. I had cramps for the last 3 periods of school but luckily they weren't too bad. Now my skin feels oily and sick as it usually does this day. My gums and teeth feel gross too...could brush them for days...and scrub my skin for days too. I hate being a woman. I'm so tired too...tired with random aches. I suppose it could always be worse.
I don't have much else to say other than this.
Until next time, I bid you goodbye,