February 24th, 2006

me default

Semper ubi sub ubi!!!!

Okay, freaky moment yesterday...basically Heather was really depressed and she wanted me to call her but I felt this strange...emotion or something that was screaming at me, "NO DON'T DO IT YOU FOOL" and it was driving me MAD because I knew it was a horrible emotion that was getting in my way for helping a friend who needed it...and she kept wanting me to say stuff but my brain died and I had no idea what to say...and her mom came home and told her if she was my friend she'd call me...so she did. And I was at the computer and she kept begging me to say something but I didn't know what and it was the strangest thing...you know how sometimes your eye or arm or something twitches? Well a muscle in my stomach was doing that only it was insanely rapid...and mom told me to go sit with her on the couch and she was checking for my pulse and I had no idea why. I was scared and so overwhelmed and frusterated with myself that I started to sob! (So now heather knows what I sound like when I'm crying lol) Aaaand she told me to dry my tears and not cry so I said, "I will if you do" and after that we both stopped crying and talked for about 2 hours lol. I went to bed at midnight too lol but that's alright because I took a nap when I got home. But anyways it was a really fun conversation and I have to let her know that SHE has an epic voice too and I enjoyed talking to her. I have issues with saying most things but I can sure type them so there it is! I'm sorry I didn't ACTUALLY say it..*hugs Heather* thank you for calling me...it really made both of our days a whole lot better.

Until next time, I bid you goodbye,

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